another 3 more months ..i will be free again....
but i do not know whether i have enough motivation to scrape through this period.
as time seems to reach to an end....the hands on the clocks seem to be getting heavier...
every second felt like minutes...every minute felt like hours....
and things that i do...now appears to be getting on every else's nerves.
Am i still doing too much..?
everytime i try to put in my best...there will always be someone out there who will put a wet blanket over me.
but ironically...these people out there regard me as their wet blanket.
things on earth are so difficult to balance...perhaps thats what they term as imperfect when things doesnt go their desired way.
the weather out there is pouring with rain again... another attempt by god to balance things out...
to allow those who are constantly preoccupied by themselves to genuinely sit down and reflect on their actions. to allow those who are always seeing blissful and fortunate things happening around them to realise that things are not always this way.... pain and relief...they come together... we always hate pain....we look forward to relief...no matter wat the solutions might be...but once the pain end....we will always look back and realise how much a person can grow through pain. maybe its a human's survival instinct to protect their ownself...irregardless of how selfless their solutions or actions might be...they will always dive into the quickest and easiest way out. But not do they know that its a whole vicious cycle. I stab u from ur back...next time i will definitely find a way to pay it back...haha..thats the game that adults are playing.
i feel lost and lonely most of the time...not because i dont have people who cares for me...though i have loads of friends ....loving family....there are too many of these questions that bothers me....and no one could provide me with the answer.
i always think that it its a joke for a twenty year old to be bothered so much about these things.
but i realise i have a greater sense of empathy for those who had lived beyond my age and not realising about all these attributes of life...
