Days after ORD

Its 13th of November 2008,
Its the 2nd day since i last seen my camp.

Haha i never knew that it will actually end this way....
Everything just faded quietly....
It feels like 1yr 10months worth of dreams...
Sometimes it would be a nightmare...
Sometimes it would be a sweet little dream...
But gladly its is something that i will never forget for life i guess...
Haha its kinda difficult for people living from all around singapore to get together..
Perhaps its this kind of special bond that brought us closer and closer together each day...
The days we wet the parade square with our sweat....the days we gossip and talk about anything under the sun in bunk....the days we get into trouble together....

Frankly speaking...its the first time i get to be myself...
The laughters i gave were all genuine.

Although everything ended up the hard way...
I learnt my lessons...
I had to grow up fast....
I had no one to blame to but myself
But thanked everyone who had helped me in one way or another..

I know myself.....sometimes i look down on myself too much...
I didnt dare to take an extra step out of my own comfort zone/ protected zone..
But i tried this time...and failed terribly...
I thought it would be chance for me to prove to myself that im worthwhile...
I'm useful.....
But it ended up as a double-edged sword....hurting myself the most and gotten others worried...

No matter how much good deeds i did to reclaim myself.....it will always end up otherwise....
Why Why Why......