Gosh Gosh cob webs everywhere...here and there.....haha i guess its time to clean up a bit.

its been almost 6 months since i ord le ba.....
time flies man......time realli does.
Especially when you are working...every month all you wish is for the pay day to come...
haha den when pay day comes...you will look forward to your next pay day...and this goes on and on...
haha and i guess its time to pamper myself...after these few months of hard work...its
been a long long time since i bought something for myself...

New shirts, watch? bag... ? watever....

Frankly speaking...although time seems to accelerate faster and faster...the quality of time gets lower and lower. sometimes at work...i would ponder what should i do to make life more interesting and fruitful.

LEarn new skills? ...make new friends...?
Haha but i will end up with a conculsion
"Haiz tired..."

The energy...the never-say-die attitude of me seems to be fading away....im also beginning to lose confidence within myself.

There are certainly lots and lots of dilemma in the real world. The simple act of merely helping a friend falls into the sceptism of whether he will use the money to repay his depts or using it to gamble. haha..Im totally clueless about how to deal with this problem...especially when he is quite close to you at certain episode of your life...especially when he personally calls you and tells you that his family is in danger...and he needs that certain amount of money to solve the issue.

But the problem also lies in the fact that it isnt the first time...furthermore....im just 21 and im not earning loads of money every month.

I ask myself....am i too nice to be good.....why is it so difficult to say no sometimes...even harder den seeking someone for forgiveness.